Sunstones For Sunday

I realised that I am in love with Orange.
Becos of my pretty Sunstones.
Here i wana say a big big thanks to Rachael Girl for the beautiful sunstones.
Mum had given me a pair of sunstone earing and a heart shaped sunstone necklace.
But i lost one of the earings. So left one lone sunstone earing.

Let me tell you more about it.
Sunstone is a joyful stone. It heightens the good nature and sweetness.
If you feel "down" hold a hand full of sunstones and feel your mood lighten. Sunstone is a stone to treasure. Sunstone is white with glittering spots ranging from yellow to red, mostly being orange.
To me , Sunstone is just like something that is really special to me.
Shines in joy and happiness. Just like sunflower it is identical to my nature.

I wana start a Sunstone collection. XD


Today is tiring. Mr Soo made us dance n practice non stop for 4 and a half hours.
N worst still we didn't get to drink or ve a break...
Really tired...
Went Jurong Point for late lunch with annie n Rachel. Love Rachael's gift for me.
Really awesome ! SUNSTONES !

Rush home. Bathed n i am at starbucks now wif  Siyun.
Drinking my favourite Caramel Frappe...
Awesomne day, cos i ve received an awesome gift

Dear Father bless me. Bless me with the wisdom to choose between the right n wrong.
Bless me with the courage to go against the evil and unrighteous. Let my faith still stands strong in midst of all
these trouble and stress.
Bless my love ones to be drawn near to you. 
Bless us.
In jesus' name i pray Amen.

Sunday's Sunstone.

真傻vs装傻

我是在装傻。
可是真傻或许会好过一点。

就这样沉睡去遗忘。

Went for pepper lunch with PSM n Directors.
Tok about the script and props. ect..
Enjoyed myself. N get know to them more. Anyway we r gonna to work together for the
next half of the year so it is gud to know them beta.

Went home. Dozed off on the train. Really freakingly tired.
Den received a miss call from Johnathan.
He asked me to join him @ orchard.
But i juz wana stay at home n sleep n settle some admin stuff.
Really gotcha sleep more. My headache is coming this few days.
Need to go back to sch for practice tomoro.
N go to National Library to support the exhibition of our caligraphy group.

School holidays is coming to the end. Sob.

But it is gud. Cos i need to be busy n stress so i can concentrate n focus more.

Yea dad is back with my ice blend.

N i am going sleep right after this.

When it is only 5pm now.

我很幸福了
所以我学会知足。

Under the Spell

I Had a long night with Xiao Zi.
Just Now.
Chat and share. All crap like we used to.
Yea. She is right. Just like under some kinda of spell , silently we seemed to come to this agreement to avoid some topic and issue. No one mentioned anything about what had happened. Should i say it is good or bad ?
I won't broach about the past anymore. Not worth n no use to say anything right now when everything is over. Just let it walk by and let me just lie to myself that nothing had happened.

She said i am difficult to see thru. Like pim had once told me too. Jing ah dun hide too much.
Yea i hide, I avoid. Cos i fear too much. Even i dun understand myself sometimes. Just live it ba.
One second i can be so blur and another i can be some sensitive.

Weird and strange.
Just like i feel cold in the night and burning warm in the day.
Things might not eva the same as the begining. Cos no matter how hard we try to rewind the time.
It just won't work. Just let us all learn to forget and start anew. Take it easy n slow. Things will change.
Hearts will be binded again. Broken pieces will be connected once again.

Annie Lim once told me : you r really complicated yet try so hard to live simple.
I laughed at that. I really do my best to think simple. But can't help.
You just won't understand.
Cos i dun understand too.
God. Only you know wat is the best for me. I lift everything up to you .


I wana do many many crazy things that i won't. I can't. I shouldn't.
I  wana sneak out of the house one day in the middle of the night and go starbucks for caramel frappe.
I wana scream at the roof top: I am a idiot.
I wana find my sweet escape.
I wana sit by the riverside that we used to n play with fireworks again.
I wana look straight to her eye with no more fear and say: Once a bitch foreva a bitch. N you r one.
I wana tell the him : You r a jerk and such a joke. For d past 3 yrs.
I wana tell you how gud you look in your school uniform and the lesson you taught me about expectations.
still saddens me.
I wana tell her that i dun blame you but i just can't forget. And i still love you in my way.
I wana tell him that you are the best guy i eva meet but you are worst too.
I wana tell me that: Jing . Once broken, Mend it, hide it or throw it. It is still broken.


Under the spell, my wishes turn so true. And it just happened to be a dream.

Breaking Silence

I slept for 10 hours.
I am a pig.
And right now i am hidding in my room. With my guitar. In this dark dark room. This made me feel that the night is still here. I used to love day light so much.. But darkness give me the peaceful feeling somehow.

I need to practice.

Practice alot of things.French .Japanese.Guitar .Violin.

I am orh-so Lazy. Haha..And there is so much things i got to learn and study on. Umm. I will take it easy and enjoy in the process. Pace myself slowly. 

 I dated Xinmei for a drink at starbucks in the evening after my lesson. Promised D tat i might be going to there if possible.  She wants a change in her life.
Well i hope she is firm to make this changes.  Cos it is her life. She is incharge and no one will be able to make her change anything. She is a stubborn gal. I can only try my best to give her some advise in times.
She will be okay

Ho left yesterday. He left with all memories. I am happy that he left.But she is still here. Maybe one day she will leave and go somewhere else in the other part of the world. Just dun let me see them again.
I fear. I really do. Anyway all the best in Newzland.

Mum asked me: Gal. You sure you wana stay here?
I answered : Yes.
So i will just stay here and complete my A levels and see how it goes.
But i feel lyk going to going to explore the bigger world out there.
It is far to fascinating.
Under this big univers there is so much to be seen, to be known to be heard.
I wish all my wishes can come true. But you can't fulfill for me.



noʎ sǝssıɯ llıʇs I

White Lies

Right Now  
Right Away
I am so sleepy. I am seriously orh-so sleepy.
Went to school to rehers Dance Performance with Cat High, N the boys are seriously CUTE ttm >.<
N Mr Soo actually praised us. I was expecting a big lecture again. We were indeed so so so surprise.

Drinking Homemade lemon Tea right now. Too sweet yet so bitter.
I feel so screwed up. Low self esteem again? Where had i placed my confidance n pride.
Yucks. I dun lyk this kinda of Feeling.
Sometimes the freedom i have to do wat so eva i wana to , is pretty not something wonderful.
It just dun feel rite.

I just feel lyk slapping myself. Wake up! Stop thinking, stop lying to yourself. Stop being so dumb n idotic.
How foolish you looked in the mirror. You simply looked like a joke.
I can laugh and look perfectly fine. N some parts are supposed to be hidden well. Just let it fade and die.
It should be fine. But it's not easy. Just learn to numb my mind by working and focusing all God and Work.


Gonna to watch Nightmare. Maybe alone is another good challange !
Umm.. ... Just wonder how is Xiao Zi. Still graving over tat guy? I suppose she is fine .
How about him, in camp. Should he be watch world cup right now. Maybe missing her, but i will be happy that he is happy.  Just pray that they ve peace and stay happy everyday. I will pray and bless them.

Mother, you are a tough woman.
I learned to be lyk you. Lyk granny.
We should not depend on Man so much. But ourselves. I will work hard so to not bring on to your worries and burden. Stay on. Be brave.


White White Lies. Cos I dun believe them anymore.
ɹɐƎp ʎW .ʎddɐɥ ǝɹɐ noʎ ʇɐɥʇ ʎddɐH

A Gal named SuNDae

Once Upon a time.                                              
There is a gurl named S.U.N.D.A.Y
She live in an island called Never-land.
N one day she found her white horse prince.

N they live happily ever afer.

OMG. This is a joke. Cos there is simply no fairy tale in reality. But. But. But.Some one out there is worth waiting for.

Ummmm. I still left one article n that freaking Science Assignment to complete.
U beta kick off all da lazy bums n start to practice Guitar n revise your Japanese Hiragana.
Meeting Mrs Koh for Tea n Shopping Date wif Annie. I simple dun understand why bugis street is orh-so-tempting to her. You will get bored of it sooon . Trust me Crazy gurl.

I am eatin durian right now for lunch. Umm... Taste Good. I know you will say Yucks.But i lyk it tough.
Everything is worth a try. The last week of June will my explorer week. Bungee Jumpin? Any Brave soul  wana tag along?

Life's Back on the same track it used to be. Simplicity yet exciting.
I am going to work really hard. You can do much better de, sundae. Glorify God n make good use
of your gifts n talents. When school starts you will have to make as much A1s as possible n increase the GPA to at least 3.6 so you dun ve to waste time studying the subject you r alrdy gud in.

Lastly, my DEar.

ʇ,uop noʎ ʇnq noʎ pǝssıɯ ı


                    

My Sweet Escape.

It's 01:51 now.

16 OF June

And i am still not in Bed yet.

Have not been blogging for really a long long long time.

These few months seemed to be a great dramatic series with many episode to be told.

Test of Faith. Test of Hope. Test of Trust.

I was put in the test once again. She n Her seemed to be really alike in someways. With the Same birthday. From the same place. With the same story. But she is not Her. She is different. I believe. I still trust n cherish. Oh my DEar please dun disappoint me.

I am okay now. Really. Thanks to Mum Rosalind For the advise.

God wants me to study hard.

That is his plan for me. N I will glorify Him. Amen. I had a great time over at Mum Rosalind's house

with Angeline with me. I wished i had motivated her in someway.

Life's yours , you got to take charge of it. Cos nobody is responsible in all d things in you life.

I am feely hungry now. Grwwrl.

Ummm... anyone can cook me something? I am juz too lazy.

Sometimes i still wonder where can i escape or who can i escape to? 0.o...

Whose shoulder will never fails to let me lean?

Whose words is gonna be eva trust-worthy?

But never-the-less i still wana hold on this little hope of believing that i can still trust.

I am looking for you.

My sweet Escape.

snupɐʎ snupɐʎ  snupɐʎ

A story about love.

A story about love.................

This entry is also dedicated to a close friends of mine.

Gal Gal.

U will be okayyy.........><

1st..................Spring

Love is a young seedling.

It was planted when A gal  met B boy

A Chemical reaction took place.

It was  beautiful.

So pure

So sudden

So sweet.

Care+ Trust+ Committment----> LOVE

2nd...............summer

Soon it is already summer........

This seedling has grown into a Blossoming tree with

beautiful flowers.

The flowers.

Bloom.

Bloom.

And bloom.

For they  give their all in summer.

For their passion.

For their care.

For they swear their love will never dies....

So did their flowers of love.

It had bloomed with passion and everything they could give.

In the summer.

Their love is everything.

3RD Autumn

The wind of Autumn came.

Flowers withered and fall.

Leaves turned yellow and pale.

A gal n B boy.

Sense something unusual.

There seemed to be a wall seperating their hearts.

Gal A asked: 

B......

Why do seemed to be so far?

When you are just right here by my side

Why do i feel so cold?

When you are hugging me.

Why do you keep silence as the reply

When i am waiting for the words out for your lips.

B........

I just wonder if still loves me.........

Then Boy B sighed and keep silence as the reply.........

he said in his words of silent

A.

I dun understand you anymore.

For your eyed are hidding.

For your heart is shutting.

For your hug is distancing.

For your kiss is cold.

I dun see your trust anymore.

For care has turnesd into worries.

For concern are just words of doubt.

For understanding are being misunderstood.

For there isn't your trust.

A.

I love you.

They are just hide in my silence.

Autumn wind blows.

Their love like the flowers

Withered and fall.

Leaving only fragments........

And the pale the leaves.

Hanging helplessly with

doubt, fear, mistrust and pain.

.................................................

4th winter

.................

Snow flake's falling with cold wind that swirls and sang

the song of parting.............

The last leaf fell.........

Just like the tree's last tear...........

A gal n B gal.

Stood back facing each other.

A: B , have you eva loved me?

B:  Yes. You were one of those that had left a imprint in my heart.

A: I hate you.

B: Why.

A: Becos i love you deeply.

B: Yes you do. But we both know a love without trust will not last.

A: Yes. Sorry. But a love without committment will neither.

B:  Goodbye. I will miss you. (He kissed A on her forehead )

A: .......... (silently)

We both

loved each other.

We both cried.

We both feel the sweetness.

We both taste the bitterness.

Hurting each other

was one way that we

choose to see if love still exist.

But we were all wrong.

.................

B: ..........................

You will be.

You will be okay my gal.

This love is though bitter but sweeten with beautiful memories.

I know i have let you down.

Sorryy........

Our ending isn't the ending we supposed it to be.

The happy ending isn't our perfect ending.

But,

this is the best ending rite away.

rite now.

We love.

We loved.

We will love.

We will be loved.

Sum time

Sum where

we will see each other again.

With the hands hold on tight to someone else

With the pain  replacing

With the sorrow fading

You know.

we will still make everything okay.

A hugged B the last time

And they both cried

This winter is filled with pain.

Hurt and sorrow.

Their tree was left alone.

Standing all alone.............

the wind's whispering goodbye............

Yes.

Their tree of love has withered.

But years after A met boy A

And B met gal B.

Their perfect match......

All those memories

were just sum memories of youth.

Nevertheless.

They r still

so pure

so beautiful

so unexplainable.

.....................Copy righted Sunday's work .............................

Well. Hopefully this will inspire some

gal gal & boy boy.

To me everything will end with a happy ending.

A imperfect ending.

A happy ending which was not the happy ending we wanted.

Love is just like the 4 seasons

Spring growth

summer blossoming

autumn cooling

winter parting

Some couple has d capablity of keeping in summer

some go through the process again n again

from winter to spring then again...

but some choose to leave this cycle when they failed to keep their tree

living.

Well enjoy the process of love.

Till you really find your perfect match

Like A isn't meant for B

After years ...

the pain that you thought you can't endure

will just fade away

the sorrow that you can't let go

will just be replaced by smiles.

To those who are still in love.

Love with passion n trust.

Treasure those who you love

Enjoy loving n being loved.

Love is like a seedling.

You need care , trust and committment.

I love.

I have love.

I have loved.

I have been in love.

I have been loved.

I am loved.

I am loving.

I will love.

I will  be loved.

And so same goes to all..........

all............

I pray and bless all of you.

Love in different ways...

God has his plan for you.

Dun be lost.

The cycle of Life

RIGHT NOW....
RIGHT AWAY....

Life is like an empty cup....

Filll it with love and joy and laughter
Now it is empty
Fill it up
Repeat
Forever after
First, so full
i'm giving
All my love and joy in  living
Then near empty
tired of living
And i'm the
One who needs the giving.
this cup
this cup
it's always overflowing
we give and get
we get and give
life's balance
keeps on going
take this cup
i ve filled it up
with love and joy and laughter
Now it's empty
fill it up
repeat
forever, after

Laura Byrnes

I used to complain

about my life.

Blaming that why my life is so

dramatic and saddening.

Then i realised.

Life is like an evolution.

Or a cycle-like thing.

You give and you get.

You get and give.

Keeping the cycle continuing.

Forever and after.

In Christ,

Our heavenly father always

tells us to Share our love

Give our

Riches to the poor

Food to the hungry

Water to the thirst

Joy to the devastated

Blessings to the unblessed.

I pray.

Anyone and everyone who had read this entry

Look at the people around you.

See if anyone really leads a life without any obstacles or challanges

so

we should stop counting our fall

and feel blessed instead.

And most importantly

Bless the people near you.

Be it your enemy or foes

Be it your family or friends.

Bless them all.

For we give and get.

And then get and give.

This cycle will continue........

Foreverm,

After....

Hurray ..............







and i think my food still rocks..............






although it is my first time cooking for the whole family






but i think my food will taste great.........


















here is the dishes....................


















soup= tomato wif mushroom n prawn with chicken leg haha


















1) french bean wif bacoon






2) steamed egg wif tofu






3) sweet n sour fish






4) mix vegie






5) cabbage wif minched meat n egg






6)chilli n pork chop chop






























oh yea i am happy. you are happy. and we r all happy !!!!!!!


















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I LOVE COOKING !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

New Habits

Erm erm .....

school hols begins today yea !!!!!

here are somethings i got to do....

1. pack my wardrobe

(it is damn messy)

2. Blog shop

(i know i ve been dragging it for really long)

3. SCHOOL WORK

(i will try n finish them by monday)

4. Change my spectacles

(i should ve done it earlier)

5. Star revising my work n tidy up notes

(will be done on tuesday n wednesday ^^)

6. spent more time with God n Daniel

(perhaps i will bring daniel to church n science center ^^ )

that is all i guess ^^

Learn to be beta

Dun noe since when we have forgotten who we actually are

at the very begining of the story.

It seems to be a long time a ago.

When we all used to be

naive

innocent

curious

happy

and cheerful.

And then, right now

we lost them all.

Is it the world that has forgotten us?

Or it is us the one that turn oblivious to the world?

When have we learn all those words that resembles

needles of catus?

Where have we found those anger and fury from?

 Just let peace embrace us.

Let forgiveness and faith change us.

I will learn to give again

yet expect no return.

I will learn to put hopes on

the lord & each n single thing

that brings possibility

It time to come back to reality

toh wen  jing ah

it is really time to end your break

you know

you dun belong there

then why are you trying so hard to keep up with pace

i think it is time for change.

go back to church.

Happy birthday to YOU

Hey gal happy birthday

time really flys

.......................

All i want to tell you is that

thank you for being by my side all these years

even though we dun see each other often

i am still glad that we are still as close as before

so happy birthday!!

perfect solitude

Nothing much

sorry no post for today ~~

wana do work ...0.o

SMILE N SAY THANKS TO EACH SINGLE DAY

We should learn to be grteful

for every single day in life.

so remember...

say thnks for

you are still alive in the start of the day

for the food you being given

for the water that grant your thirst

for the people that smile at you

for every single little n negliable

things on earth.

So we should just smile

n show your beautiful teeth

bow n say "thank u 4 makin my day great"

to any person you have meet.

They will feel great

for they r being appreciated

n they will alternatively be grateful

n give thanks to others.

isn't it great?

to see everyone

smile like sunshine?

so we should smile.... n say thank you !!

The last day of my 1st job

For the past 2 months

i ve been working at Snow Angel.

I gained work experience and met people of all works of life

in the mean while i did lose too.

But anyway i still believe it only rite focus n concentrate on

the time spent with Daniel and my close friends

Nothing will come before God and my family.

People around the area

always say this to me: Hey Sunday keep your smile !

You bright up our day ~

I am glad i have keep this image of mine

so sunny n cheerful.

So like my name.

Everyone is just gonna remember me as

the gal who likes to talk

who loves to laugh out loud

who is super hyper n high ~~

yea wateva it is

i am glad that for the past 2 month i ve made ur days bright.

God bless the people

May happinesse still fills their days.

Ultimate experience

I know it is bad

but i did it......0.o

Went to Clarke quay wif Xin mei

after work...

had quite alot of fun.

so we went in n ordered  Liberty Blue

n House of tequila mixing wif orange....

Neither taste great n i dun like the taste of Liberty Blue

toooo overwhelming n it makes feel really dizzy.

So we sat there n talk crap

n play "scissors paper stone"

to challange each other with d drink

i noe it is lame but haha....

there come these guys wanted to offer us a drink

by that time i was quite tired n dizzy so i ignored it

xinmei asked him: oh thanks, but who do you wana treat?

then he said both..=_=#

But anyway we rejected becos we wanted to leave n go home soon.

Had enuf relaxation.

Tomoro still ve to wake up early for work n project.

so anyway i lose the bet.

I will ve to treat her milk tea + shake shake fries..

Music starts we went in n stand infront of the lead singer.

He is a very charming guy when he sings.

it makes me wonder about his life story.

I just dun noe why.

haha

soooo...

he stood on the stage n asked us..

"don't you gals ve school 2moro? "

me n xinmei looked at each other n  hush him.

haha very funny

Den i started to emo when he sang a very sad song.

it is sad.

pretty sad.

after that

the singer was talking with his mike!

saying to everyone...

"these 2 gals ve got school 2moro, check the IC"

N smile at us playfully..

we were like ohh sharks haha

but still stayed there until 1 plus n went home.

Yesterday was my craziest nite eva.

It is like some sort of release.

of all th sorrow n stress

But definitely i am nt going to forget who i really am

and the roles n responsiblity i have.

This is a good experience

but this is also a test on myself.

To resist to temptation

n differentitate between the rite n wrong.

Dear father forgive me if i ve done wrong.

Busyness is a good way of numbness

Explanade

jurong (on my way to school)

clarke quay

Good day. Good good day.

We r the daughters n sons of God.

He shall provivide us with everything we need.

He is our everything....

Say grace...

Amen!

WOOO!

CCA super duper early...

i rushed home n get changed so i could take a walk at

city hall to do some shopping...

bought Biscuits from Marks n spencer

n headphones from HVM

wow another 50 bucks is gone...

sob~~~~ =_=

getting my salary next wed !!!

can't wait for this job to end!

I need a break n really spent more time with god n daniel~

Called Idol yesterday night n shared with her about all the

things that had happened recently...

she asked me to let go n keep praying...

n do what i feel is right n follow the path that is led by Him.

i just need some peace in mind.

i know i will definitely be happier if i had made the right choice.

For all these years people change

and i should not be the one who keeps adapting to their change.

Perhaps it is a good time to also make some changes myself.

I look forward to the one day that i meet my backbone whom He Has planned for me.

Sleep gal~~~

you will be alrite

thy lord shall sent angels on the guard

His bllod with washes away all sins.

Be thankful n be grateful.....