How Far is forever?

Tomorrow marks the start of the EOY. Hopefully we will all do well.
So juz do our best n leave it to God.

How Far is Foreva?
I wonder.

Music Of my life

I miss it.
I had never though that my passion for it will still be here after so many months.

Yep. I miss my violin.
But i dun think i will touch it though.
Haiz. Haiz.

Dun know why.


I get very annoyed when people dun reply msg n gone missing for hours after starting a convo?
What the ? If you wan to tok juz tok dun be so random and stop the convo leaving me hanging no where.
If not dun tok to me, i am fine with it.

Mummy is comming back soon with all my presents etc...
I need to get many things after exam haiz... So much to do also.
I need to find one day for myself to go somewhere peaceful n spent the whole night for myself alone.
Like what i had use to do. I need music, vodka and starry night.

Need to buy toner, whitening cream, eye-mask, ***** and **** and *****
many other things ... saving up quite alot. Gud !

Exam is very near. Dun panick my dear gal you will fine.
Nite people. Nite violin. Nite sunday'sweet escape.



N lastly. I'm not the one you r looking for. Dun wait.. Dun hope.


Sweet Dream my sweet escape.

你是。无形的伤口

我想。渐渐的忘记
忘记。你曾存在过的
遗迹。

忘记。任何属于你的
气味。


好像。说过的。不，记得。

Happy.
Sad.
Good.
Bad.

Is all without you. In this sweet madness, glorious sadness.
I love the way i force myself, how pathetic.

You can't see. You won't know.
The things that have changed.
I got to hold on the fading feelin.
Dun let it pass by.

Not much of sorrow but slightest pinch.
Now that i dun owe anyone anything.
Do i?


渐渐，忘记
忘记。时间

其实，一切
只是。虚无，瞬间。

Study Is all that in your mind.

What else can i say ? What else can i do? Now i thirst to east all the content in my textbooks ^^
I really want to do well n better for my EOY cos i know i haven reach my limit.

I can definitely do better. I believe i will . So right now right away i will be focus and study like i had never been. I want to feel no regrets after i took the papers. So i can forgive myself for enjoying the days after exams n BURN all the textbooks.


So, Ya. I will work hard.
Dear heavenly abba, Bless me give me the strength from the holy spirit n the wisdom to do well in  the exams so i can glorify you n give you praise.
I will do well. For everything is so according to your plans.

Amen..


Good luck gal.

寂寞。寂寞。就好

我寂寞。寂寞。就好。
这时候，谁都不要来安慰我。就好。
就让我一个人，痛到受不了，伤到快疯掉。
人不来就，寂寞的。

I realised the emptyness. Not the pain.
Much more to the sorrow. It do hurts in some sense.

I only know that sometimes do miss you deeply, though they tell me not to.
For i shouldn't i ought not to. Yea. I shouldn't have. But, yet, still, i did.

Perhaps, juz give me sometime on my own. Dun come n comfort me.
Let me be alone. Heal it well.
I will be fine. Really Fine.

Awesome people like us...

HAD a Super Awesome Day !
Yes you guys are wonderful man.....


In the morning took HSK exam =='' quite easy... Den went lunch with Garlic n Annie at Mac...
Saw 389s n Jiaxuan ... so eat eat den i rush off to meet the class at BI afeotanical Garden...
Super long ride ; ( Den the epic thing is i drop off two stop before the actual stop .... eh... so i got to take a bus again becos it is 1.1 km away n i will get lost ....

Meet them had a great time sitting on the grass hahax... ShiFu still made us had a presentation n we sang songs after tat...Sadly our fren leonard is allergy to POLLEN ?? OMG ... it is so..... haiz so we left to buy him medicine... ehh... i wish we could had stay longer leh... didn't mange to play blind mice ...

I got a chance to be blindfolder and let ben ben guide me to walk to entrance gate. Trust me the feeling is fascinating .. yet definitely so horrible. Imagine you in total darkness n all you could do is to trust your friend n follow you ears n feel ?....i feel so sorry for the blind people. It also make me wonder have us do enough for the the disabled in the society? How is it also possible to endure the total darkness n fear ?
Hopefully when i'm grown up. I can n will do something to change the world n help the people. If only i can.......

So we went to ION XD had dinner n camwhore all the way hahax.... Pim went into NEW LOOK n she tried on this 10 inch high heel... she is super gorgerous... looked like a model ; D <3 YA HUBBY
I'M so proud of you (your 1.8 height) .... hmmm... dinner at Opera food house... NICE ...

Den leonard, pim, siyun , annie n i decided to go bugis shopping at 7 ... went to take NEOprints ... n it is definitely awesome hahax so epic ... everyone look so pretty n shuai !

Shopped with annie... brought a dress too ....
Home people... we crap all the way ..............


YES WE ROCK TTM ... AWESOME PEOPLE !

Dear Sisters n Brothers ... you guys r awesome... Thanks for the wonderful day.
Hope through this outing it make us even more bonded as we welcome the new members joining our Saturday Family...

Btw LEONARD PS: We were really worried about you ... ==' PLS GET WELL SOON K <3

I dun know how long this feeling gonna last ...

I know it's very bad. But still i hate myself to the core for this horrible feelings. Utterly disgust. Why :(
It's like i'm having spiritual attack having PMS ? I dun know ... But i only know i'm sorry. Yea. I'm sorry.

Today is quite a okay-okay dae? Study n lessons are quite relaxing. Chiong my compo like crazy wrote 4 pages. Yes i am crazy ...

Eh.. i will rush through all my holiday homework tonight and practice my guitar. One thing, here i seriously pray n hope that i can score more than 3.5 but i know i can't. I really did tried my best le. So haiz....
The september holiday is around the corner. Oh yea. Saturday is having class outing at Botannical garden Sunday's celebrating mum's birthday .Monday's going out. Tuesday n wednesday's staying overnight at Rachael's house with annie. Thursday n friday i will leave it for all my studies. Great plan.

Tohwenjing ah Tohwenjing. switch off my phone for the next 3 days. Yes need to peace. Need to clear the clouds on my head.

Dear God.

I hate myself for the feeling. I am utterly upset. I dun wish to hurt anyone. Father guide me to the right path to make the right decision. Forgive me too. That will be the last time i will do it. After that i will cut off the connection. Father. Let me be fill with peace. Amen

Don't stop believing !

Don't stopn believing .

Things will be okay.

N i happy now.

Feeling is fade.

I'm oh so happy.

Someone says.

Why are you so hot on the outside yet

so cold from the inner of your soul?

I dun know.

Things are good.

Like it has always been.

I am moving.

I am flying.

I am going.

Not gonna stop for anyone.

The world is feel so much infinity.

I will explore and see the great world.

Hey.

Where's my soul brother?

Hey where are you?

Hey the ring on my left hand.

Thanks for the constant reminder.

Hey the puzzle on my neck

thanks for telling me that pass is pass.

N there's always a new begining !

I love the way life is.

When you re gone.

Will i cry for you?

I dun know.

Cos i suddenly dun feel anything anymore.

So sorry dearest.

You will be okay will you.

Hope so.

My happiness is mine. Yes. Sunday. You will be always. Happy.