Sunstones For Sunday

I realised that I am in love with Orange.
Becos of my pretty Sunstones.
Here i wana say a big big thanks to Rachael Girl for the beautiful sunstones.
Mum had given me a pair of sunstone earing and a heart shaped sunstone necklace.
But i lost one of the earings. So left one lone sunstone earing.

Let me tell you more about it.
Sunstone is a joyful stone. It heightens the good nature and sweetness.
If you feel "down" hold a hand full of sunstones and feel your mood lighten. Sunstone is a stone to treasure. Sunstone is white with glittering spots ranging from yellow to red, mostly being orange.
To me , Sunstone is just like something that is really special to me.
Shines in joy and happiness. Just like sunflower it is identical to my nature.

I wana start a Sunstone collection. XD


Today is tiring. Mr Soo made us dance n practice non stop for 4 and a half hours.
N worst still we didn't get to drink or ve a break...
Really tired...
Went Jurong Point for late lunch with annie n Rachel. Love Rachael's gift for me.
Really awesome ! SUNSTONES !

Rush home. Bathed n i am at starbucks now wif  Siyun.
Drinking my favourite Caramel Frappe...
Awesomne day, cos i ve received an awesome gift

Dear Father bless me. Bless me with the wisdom to choose between the right n wrong.
Bless me with the courage to go against the evil and unrighteous. Let my faith still stands strong in midst of all
these trouble and stress.
Bless my love ones to be drawn near to you. 
Bless us.
In jesus' name i pray Amen.

Sunday's Sunstone.

真傻vs装傻

我是在装傻。
可是真傻或许会好过一点。

就这样沉睡去遗忘。

Went for pepper lunch with PSM n Directors.
Tok about the script and props. ect..
Enjoyed myself. N get know to them more. Anyway we r gonna to work together for the
next half of the year so it is gud to know them beta.

Went home. Dozed off on the train. Really freakingly tired.
Den received a miss call from Johnathan.
He asked me to join him @ orchard.
But i juz wana stay at home n sleep n settle some admin stuff.
Really gotcha sleep more. My headache is coming this few days.
Need to go back to sch for practice tomoro.
N go to National Library to support the exhibition of our caligraphy group.

School holidays is coming to the end. Sob.

But it is gud. Cos i need to be busy n stress so i can concentrate n focus more.

Yea dad is back with my ice blend.

N i am going sleep right after this.

When it is only 5pm now.

我很幸福了
所以我学会知足。

Under the Spell

I Had a long night with Xiao Zi.
Just Now.
Chat and share. All crap like we used to.
Yea. She is right. Just like under some kinda of spell , silently we seemed to come to this agreement to avoid some topic and issue. No one mentioned anything about what had happened. Should i say it is good or bad ?
I won't broach about the past anymore. Not worth n no use to say anything right now when everything is over. Just let it walk by and let me just lie to myself that nothing had happened.

She said i am difficult to see thru. Like pim had once told me too. Jing ah dun hide too much.
Yea i hide, I avoid. Cos i fear too much. Even i dun understand myself sometimes. Just live it ba.
One second i can be so blur and another i can be some sensitive.

Weird and strange.
Just like i feel cold in the night and burning warm in the day.
Things might not eva the same as the begining. Cos no matter how hard we try to rewind the time.
It just won't work. Just let us all learn to forget and start anew. Take it easy n slow. Things will change.
Hearts will be binded again. Broken pieces will be connected once again.

Annie Lim once told me : you r really complicated yet try so hard to live simple.
I laughed at that. I really do my best to think simple. But can't help.
You just won't understand.
Cos i dun understand too.
God. Only you know wat is the best for me. I lift everything up to you .


I wana do many many crazy things that i won't. I can't. I shouldn't.
I  wana sneak out of the house one day in the middle of the night and go starbucks for caramel frappe.
I wana scream at the roof top: I am a idiot.
I wana find my sweet escape.
I wana sit by the riverside that we used to n play with fireworks again.
I wana look straight to her eye with no more fear and say: Once a bitch foreva a bitch. N you r one.
I wana tell the him : You r a jerk and such a joke. For d past 3 yrs.
I wana tell you how gud you look in your school uniform and the lesson you taught me about expectations.
still saddens me.
I wana tell her that i dun blame you but i just can't forget. And i still love you in my way.
I wana tell him that you are the best guy i eva meet but you are worst too.
I wana tell me that: Jing . Once broken, Mend it, hide it or throw it. It is still broken.


Under the spell, my wishes turn so true. And it just happened to be a dream.

Breaking Silence

I slept for 10 hours.
I am a pig.
And right now i am hidding in my room. With my guitar. In this dark dark room. This made me feel that the night is still here. I used to love day light so much.. But darkness give me the peaceful feeling somehow.

I need to practice.

Practice alot of things.French .Japanese.Guitar .Violin.

I am orh-so Lazy. Haha..And there is so much things i got to learn and study on. Umm. I will take it easy and enjoy in the process. Pace myself slowly. 

 I dated Xinmei for a drink at starbucks in the evening after my lesson. Promised D tat i might be going to there if possible.  She wants a change in her life.
Well i hope she is firm to make this changes.  Cos it is her life. She is incharge and no one will be able to make her change anything. She is a stubborn gal. I can only try my best to give her some advise in times.
She will be okay

Ho left yesterday. He left with all memories. I am happy that he left.But she is still here. Maybe one day she will leave and go somewhere else in the other part of the world. Just dun let me see them again.
I fear. I really do. Anyway all the best in Newzland.

Mum asked me: Gal. You sure you wana stay here?
I answered : Yes.
So i will just stay here and complete my A levels and see how it goes.
But i feel lyk going to going to explore the bigger world out there.
It is far to fascinating.
Under this big univers there is so much to be seen, to be known to be heard.
I wish all my wishes can come true. But you can't fulfill for me.



noʎ sǝssıɯ llıʇs I

White Lies

Right Now  
Right Away
I am so sleepy. I am seriously orh-so sleepy.
Went to school to rehers Dance Performance with Cat High, N the boys are seriously CUTE ttm >.<
N Mr Soo actually praised us. I was expecting a big lecture again. We were indeed so so so surprise.

Drinking Homemade lemon Tea right now. Too sweet yet so bitter.
I feel so screwed up. Low self esteem again? Where had i placed my confidance n pride.
Yucks. I dun lyk this kinda of Feeling.
Sometimes the freedom i have to do wat so eva i wana to , is pretty not something wonderful.
It just dun feel rite.

I just feel lyk slapping myself. Wake up! Stop thinking, stop lying to yourself. Stop being so dumb n idotic.
How foolish you looked in the mirror. You simply looked like a joke.
I can laugh and look perfectly fine. N some parts are supposed to be hidden well. Just let it fade and die.
It should be fine. But it's not easy. Just learn to numb my mind by working and focusing all God and Work.


Gonna to watch Nightmare. Maybe alone is another good challange !
Umm.. ... Just wonder how is Xiao Zi. Still graving over tat guy? I suppose she is fine .
How about him, in camp. Should he be watch world cup right now. Maybe missing her, but i will be happy that he is happy.  Just pray that they ve peace and stay happy everyday. I will pray and bless them.

Mother, you are a tough woman.
I learned to be lyk you. Lyk granny.
We should not depend on Man so much. But ourselves. I will work hard so to not bring on to your worries and burden. Stay on. Be brave.


White White Lies. Cos I dun believe them anymore.
ɹɐƎp ʎW .ʎddɐɥ ǝɹɐ noʎ ʇɐɥʇ ʎddɐH

A Gal named SuNDae

Once Upon a time.                                              
There is a gurl named S.U.N.D.A.Y
She live in an island called Never-land.
N one day she found her white horse prince.

N they live happily ever afer.

OMG. This is a joke. Cos there is simply no fairy tale in reality. But. But. But.Some one out there is worth waiting for.

Ummmm. I still left one article n that freaking Science Assignment to complete.
U beta kick off all da lazy bums n start to practice Guitar n revise your Japanese Hiragana.
Meeting Mrs Koh for Tea n Shopping Date wif Annie. I simple dun understand why bugis street is orh-so-tempting to her. You will get bored of it sooon . Trust me Crazy gurl.

I am eatin durian right now for lunch. Umm... Taste Good. I know you will say Yucks.But i lyk it tough.
Everything is worth a try. The last week of June will my explorer week. Bungee Jumpin? Any Brave soul  wana tag along?

Life's Back on the same track it used to be. Simplicity yet exciting.
I am going to work really hard. You can do much better de, sundae. Glorify God n make good use
of your gifts n talents. When school starts you will have to make as much A1s as possible n increase the GPA to at least 3.6 so you dun ve to waste time studying the subject you r alrdy gud in.

Lastly, my DEar.

ʇ,uop noʎ ʇnq noʎ pǝssıɯ ı


                    

My Sweet Escape.

It's 01:51 now.

16 OF June

And i am still not in Bed yet.

Have not been blogging for really a long long long time.

These few months seemed to be a great dramatic series with many episode to be told.

Test of Faith. Test of Hope. Test of Trust.

I was put in the test once again. She n Her seemed to be really alike in someways. With the Same birthday. From the same place. With the same story. But she is not Her. She is different. I believe. I still trust n cherish. Oh my DEar please dun disappoint me.

I am okay now. Really. Thanks to Mum Rosalind For the advise.

God wants me to study hard.

That is his plan for me. N I will glorify Him. Amen. I had a great time over at Mum Rosalind's house

with Angeline with me. I wished i had motivated her in someway.

Life's yours , you got to take charge of it. Cos nobody is responsible in all d things in you life.

I am feely hungry now. Grwwrl.

Ummm... anyone can cook me something? I am juz too lazy.

Sometimes i still wonder where can i escape or who can i escape to? 0.o...

Whose shoulder will never fails to let me lean?

Whose words is gonna be eva trust-worthy?

But never-the-less i still wana hold on this little hope of believing that i can still trust.

I am looking for you.

My sweet Escape.

snupɐʎ snupɐʎ  snupɐʎ