☜♥☞ Climbing the moutain ☜♥☞

We got to move on.

Keep climbing.

Keep trying.

No matter how hard.

No matter how painful.

Now matter wat it takes.

I just nid to go on my own way.

If , God had given me any chance

to choose the path again.

I would still do the same.

I will make it okay.

I will.

I can.

I will.

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You know it is not that hard.

Just finished everything i am supposed to do.

I was late for work today.

Glad that our da jie wasn't there.

Ermm i am worrying about the online sales...

wat if i couldnt reach my sales target...

I nid to do many things ....

- Prepare for my coming music exam

- Get ready for school

- Complete my project

zong zhi wo tai duo shi yao zuo le...

working really hard

i had went out wif annie n siyun

today.

fun of cors.

we went to have our lunch at city hall at the japanese restaurant

where mrs koh had treated us a meal.

The food is nice

and we gals enjoyed if of cors.

Den we proceed to bugis, for some shopping.

Annie wana get a dress...

It really took a long time to find something she really like.

Around 4 we went to the shop  where i work.

Da jie was there n she gave the gals really gud discount on the items there.

Hahaha...

da jie is so so nice man...

As usual work is rather boring n tiring.

We wanted to go to pub 

to celebrate our x'mas there but i did not go in the end.

Reason 1: Dun wan spend money for i nid save up money

reason 2 : Too exhausted n lazy haha

Reason 3: Feeling unsecured n dun wish to sin against god

But i wana go n see leh

wonder how is it onside haha

next time ba n i will go wif pim dear or siyun.

Perhaps. maybe. if

i  will really nid to work very hard at the shop le

if my basic payment $600

i guess i will be able to reach $ 800 plus plus for my overall income

hopefully i am able to reach $10000

after 1 yr

so jiayou !

Knowing her is a surprise .

Start working yesterday.

This is my 1st time working without letting my family knows.

Yeah.

I know they wouldn't let me.

But i ve got to work.

So i can save enuf money to go to for the courses i wan to.

No way am i gonna ask money from dad n mum

for the things i "wan"

i think it is onli fair.

N i wan to get use to the feeling of depending more on myself.

I will be okay.

working is quite tiring.

for u got to stand for hours n when there is too many people

you will be in a big mess.

at 1st i dun noe the price of the clothes so i just got to keep as "da jie"

abt it.

haiz haiz haiz a green horn ....

anyway i made 2 more friends there ^^

jingjing haha quite similar to my name

but i called myself sunday there

for dun wan to use my real name

but gonna change my english name to dat too 0.0

she is nice.

N another gal call Coco

To me knowing her is my surprise

if i had not got this job.

I guesse the both of us will never met.

we r just like the north n south.

U know.

She is really brave.

But i know i can never become somebody like her.

She is onli 17 n is totally living on herself.

Quiting school from anderson.

Perhaps she had regretted

but she is still happy n lively.

Dearest coco.

How i wish ur live will be different.

But still as long as u r happy.

Sunday will give u support k.

So x'mas at pub?

haha

i look forward on knowing more about u

as work together in 2010

Hero inside

I realised .

I understood wat she meant i will hate her.

Trust me i still loves u as eva.

No change.

Mrs wong told me to not add weight n  responsiblity

on my shoulders anymore.

For in the end one day i will turn out hating my mum.

I agreed wif her advice.

Sometimes i do blame her.

I blame God too.

I blame.

I hate.

I wonder.

I realised.

Den

I choose to let it go.

Let it be the way it is.

For it is already the best i can do in my boundaries.

I saw her white hairs.

I saw her winkles.

I saw her fragile shoulders.

I saw her sorrow .

So

how am i not to carry more.

I noe, i love her.

I dun have much time though.

Only ten yrs.

I am still looking for the hero inside me.

She will tell me if i had made a rite choice

She will give me the strength to keep holding on.

She will tell me to get numbed n do wat i am suppose not wat i want.

I got to be strong.

I ve to be brave.

I must be wise.

Mrs koh.

i miss u now.

If u were here

how i wish u were

for the secrets dat i ve never dare to tell anybody except

u n lord.

I am still climbing

still moving

still holding

still struggling

yet i am happy though

for sorrow can't melt

my  troubles.

Still . holding on

No matter how hard it is.

you just got to keep moving on.

Just keep trying

keep climbing

This hols is nice .

wana do a lot of things but did not really complete

haiz

yesterday uncle suggested to me on spending a fews in THAILAND

wow

yeah it should be nice rite

Look forward to the shopping spree there....

Now i am gonna to start work le

i will be really exhausted in the end of the day

but i still look forward on knowing the different tatics n skills

i am gonna to learn from my boss

here i am really gonna step into the real world.

Love n respect my uncle so much.

He is always so wise

teaching me so many things n ect

giving me his support

i just hope he wouldnt be that tired

n will be able to go for hols wif us someday.

So Dear god let me be strong n tough

let me be wise n calm k

we will be okay.

i will be come the somebody oneday.

Looking forward to wednesday.

Really looking forward to wednesday!!!

At 1st we were about to go out as normal

shopping

movie e

eat

den go home huh....

that is very very very broring....

so sian that make me feel like not going lololo

hahaha

anyway

me n siyun thought of this perfect plan!!

so clever lo....

We r going to the beach @ east coast

cycling

fly kite n

picnic there

hurray

oh yeah

wana to roller blade too XD

i just wish pim daring is here with us ...

Okay me n siyun decided...

we guys will meet @ 10 at the coffee shop where we used 2 have breakfast

n after dat we can buy some stuff n food at the near by supermarket

before we proceed to my house to take more food n stuff needed at the beach

haha

be4 12 we should be able to make way to the beach le XD

maybe in the afternoon we can go catch a movie n take dinner at swensengs

or sakae?

how about going orchard n see the christmas lightings?

for so long we ve not get together le...

miss u guys ah...

pim

i wish u were here wif us ....

fly back immediately lo...

Today i ve got my lesson

must pratice violin n complete a lot of stuff

gonna buy books today too

today should be fine rite...

Today is Fun~~~

Planned to really STUDY 2DAY....

okay anyway i did~~

Went to Changi Airport with my rocking frens ~~

siyun n annie...

Wanted to study ~~

and ect....

Well i am feeling that world is such a lovely place

oh yeah

love my frens i am having

love my study n school

love my family kays

love myself ~~

God!! Our daddy king thanks for the day XD

so we took out lunch n ve some fun chatting

den we go to study

until 4 plus plus

took lots of cool pics ~~

XD

really nice n valuable to me ....

SO in the afternoon i went the gymn wif angeline

for 2 hours

enjoyed it ahaha

wanted to go gymn more often now ^^

love her !!

tooooooooooo....

her accompany make me feel sooooo gud ahaha....

Planned to go church n sunday wif siyun n annie ...

wanted siyun 2 get know to god n be saved ....

hopefully she can feel his holy presence ....

god everything will be okay right ...thanks for the blood n gift of the living water

AMEN!

WILL BE GOING TO WILD WILD WET ON WED

sooooooooooooooooooo

excited kays....

Will i get some sun burn ~~

hopefully not leh ....

kay love my day hahaha

Feeling really happy oh yeah

Woke up in the morning and read msg

from my 1st buyer ....

Damn happy oh yeah ~~

Sold 2 clothes n a add on

Feeling really hopefull now^^

Went out to shopping with Angeline....

We went to bugis , city hall

ect.....

Have long talk n really have fun with each others' company

Love her k....
I hope she sees what she wana do n really go for it.
To me, she is really similar to who i once was.
So i hope i can guide her n teach her something that i ve learnt.
God, my heavenly father bless her n i pray she will be saved 2.

Well each time we get 2gather we went end up being really lucky 

So we found 2 jobs vacancy at 2 shop...
I am looking forward to work with her....
i believe we will make things great when we work together ^^

ANGEL let us jiayou haha

And gonna go n a flyer distribution on sat...

Erm happy ~~

Because i am really saving money for courses n my violin...

Today saved 200 in my account

keep it up...

i will work really hard to reach the stars

i will  keep my head high

i will never let you touch the deepest part of me

I will make every move n step firm

I will fight every battle with my pride

even if i will lose

I will face the struggles n not breaking

I will smile towards the dawn.

Just got to keep pushing on....

Christmas coming soon...

THIS WEEK...

Going out almost everyday...

2moro i am meeting angeline..to somewhere far?

then on friday going to study with siyun at airport...

wow....

so i beta do some work tonight

n pratice violin 2moro morning....

got to learn to play a new piece n learn the score by heart...

wana sign up for courses like korean n japanese in CC

should i ....

maybe i should take small steps.

Christmas...

Have not been going to church n pray le..

i should not....

i dun backslide...

Lord forgive me...

so where are we spending christmas...??

maybe somewhere not sooo crowded...it will be nice..

woooo...

my bow spoiled.

Bought new one at 50 bucks...haiz...see money is spend like water...

wahahahaa love the way things are now...

oh yeah looking forward to the day we can all meeet...

on next friday rite?

miss u guys...

so get ready to get sun burn hahaha

December ... Nice or Not

Been  talking 2 Jia for the pass few days....

He is really emo lo...

haiz... should i tell small aunt about it

n let aunt tell Hui aunt to take care of him...

He lacks of care n concern from the family lo...

Hope he is beta ....

From our conversation

Can feel he is really lonely n lost...

Glad he is still alrite to share wif me.

Planned to go out wif siyun n the group to wild wild wet...

Maybe next weekk... see 1st ba...

Dun wana get sun burn lo....

Meetin Siyun 2 study l8ter...wana finnish all the work 2 day...

hopefully i can...

Got 2 pratice violin also...

haiz...

haiz...

things r stacking up for me  ..........

Mum cried to me last night....

But wat can i do...

I wish i could make her feel beta ... but i can't

Am i going to pass d  BD present to don? dun noe yet ...

anyway he like it...

haha..

oh still have not bought the text books yet...

Must really go buy le.... sianzzzz...

Haiz it seem to me dat december is a bit boring....

wat to do...

just forcus on the work den...

haiz haiz

Finnaly Homed.

Finnaly homed.

Oh yeah

Luggage 2 heavy got to pay 100 dollars

heart broken....

Although it is not total nice there

but i miss them.

Miss them forcing me 2 eat more.

Miss them making me 2 wear more.

Miss them nagging .

I will onli go back after 5 yrs

Sad right.

Anyway i still lookforward to the daay.

But i will onli go during summer no more

winter.

It is too cold n not really fun lor....

Get know to Lin jia .

My cousin's cousin .

Called sis.

Lo

onli older than him by 10 month lo.

Nice guy.

Hope he isn't that emo lo.

Haiz

Thanks for the watch Lin Jia.

I hope you will be happy n all welcome to visit me.

Let her go ba.

Dun tie the both of you up.

You will be happier to let go.

I realised alot of things after i come back.

The world i'm in is not big enuf.

N i should go n see the bigger world.

But all this comes wif conditions.

N hard work is needed for all.

Smile n look forwards each new day^^.