为我好。

为什么。 沉默比争吵更难熬。
可你说，有些问号答案不必找。
这是，为我好。

Life seems to be a regular routine. Wake up school home sleep. Robotic life : (
Exams Assignments Grades. I can't imagine I ve spent 12 hours in school. 7 hours in bed. 2 hours in train.
N d remaining 3 hours home.

Dear God.
Everythin is in your hand. You know us well. Teach us the right way to grow. Spiritually n mentally.
Though we re forced to be in such a learning enviroment. Where competitions and achievements seems so natural to us. Bless us with the strength to walk on, in this tedious journey.
Amen.

As i always believe. Time can fade everything. I feel so peaceful yet empty in someway.
Maybe it is good maybe it is not. But life still got to move on. Yes. It has to.

We are flooded with work this week. Choosing Subject-comb soon. I dun have to worry much
cos to get into Bicultural Class should be okay. Juz gotcha get A1 for both LangARs n HCL.

Tsk...tsk...

为何在恨消失的时候。
爱，依旧挽回不了。

dun bother anymore

Recently I feel life is getting on my hand...
Gud isn't it?
I won't think of things that i am not suppose ?

oh i wan to watch AfterShock. Heard tat it is pretty touching . Hmmm.. must find one to watch wif me
Yea.. Maybe ShiFu ?

I am a sensitive kid. Yea i know. N i am damn emotional >.< Yea i know. I am a weird stubborn gal.
Yea i olso know. Hahas but that's me ! N if i were to change anypart of me it won't be me anymore.

I realised tat the distance between us is growing bigger. We always protect each other trying to show that nothin has been changed but is it possible ? Is it me or is it you? I suppose it is us, gal.

We r juz so different in times. Yet i enjoy the status now peaceful n great. Still n yet i dote on you, no matter what. Fate like to him.

Hmmm had a hard time counting money ? Being a treasurer is not easy == had to tolerate people's complain abt being broke ect...

It's late le. I'm tired. Sleep ba Jing.




Sometimes we r juz so different. I dun know but i'm glad wif this status now. Peaceful.

Sweet Sixteen

该过的。会过得


该放的。我抓不住了。



我不想舍得。可是，心也不由衷。

说谎伤害，又何必呢？



最终，我学不会的。学会了。

你呢？



献给我最酸最甜的十六岁。





Sweet Sixteen. To my sweetest yet bittest Sixteen.
I finally let go. The burden inside my heart. Leaving no pain, sorrow nor any regret. Juz simple
yet beautiful memories. Why hold on so tight? Why not let go? Whyy not start anew? Why not forgive ? It seems that the weather today is cool. The sky is so blue. My heart is so light.

I'm glad. Really do. Although it's hard to neglect that pinch inside but everything will fade more n more. Then there it goes disappear into the future.

It's gonna be a brand new beginning. My sweetest n purest start. I will be okay. I got to move on and be who i am.

Thank you my Galic Gal. Abnormal Shopperholic. Miss Gong ect ect... For the Surprise Party today XD. Sweet thought. Great Gift. Sweet sixteen.
Of cox and all those who sent me wishes via Msg, Facebook, Msn ect...
You guys re so awesome.

Thank you Xinmei Baobei , DE, Emily Laopo, Potato Angeline for making the sweet effort to wake up at 0000 today to juz wish me a happy birthday. Love Ya.
I love all the presents n everything. Yes The Cards R beautiful. The album of Desperation Band is awesome n i love it. Everythin is great. However what i really wanted is very simple.
Just someone giving me 1 sunflowe and whisper to me : Gal thankyou for bein in the world.
With the most tender hug. That's all. ; D

There is still 7 hours left now. Will anyone do what i had desired? Even if there isn't. I alrdy glad. Cos all i have is good enuf. Really.



God thank you.

For everything.

N answering my prayer.

N made the right decision Last night.

Father.

You gotta ignore .

我会慢慢习惯
习惯对你的忽视

Right Now at Kaixin's house doing MPW ... Super Funny ; D
Yea we manage to finish within hours XD
Good job Good job...

I know he is angry. But nothing can be done nor i wana do anything. Let me JUST leave this out ...
Cool . Today is a chilling day. Love ya...

Hmm gonna finish my music video n meet angel l8ter... CELEBRATE birthday again ??
Yesterday was great.. Although i wished XiaoZi Had given me something more solid so i can keep as memory? Never mnind it was still a great night too... Love ya !!

Tonight i will need to play guitar ... practice hard...
Should I still go out on wednesday . Is there still a need . Everything to be so monotonious. Not much of strong feel for anything. Juz Peace.

Dear Lord. Guide me kay. I wana be a child that glorifies you and brings u utmost praise...
Amen...


In the arms of the angel faraway
In this sweet madness. Glorious Saddness.

我不想舍得。也不想懂得。

我不想舍得。也不想懂得。
可是，心却言不由衷。开始曲折。

Yesterday, after Church. Went home. Date Pim out for movie at illuma.
Betting with myself that chances with come by if it is fated. Yea it did. But i realised i'm not as happy as what i thought i will be.

Mum eva said to me: Gal dun fall into love. You will lose yourself n all your sanity. Like i did.
Perhaps what pim said is right. In life you're intelligent and smart in your own way. Yet you will lose all the IQ with comes to emotion.

I won't deny this fact. Yea. I followed mum's path. Too much like her is no good. Juz realised my tempo's like her. Stubborn and emotional.

Inception is really a great movie. Dream n Reality. Your desire n conscience. Will everythng will be hidden wif deep solitude? Juz that it is a little too draggy.

Hmmm.. I realise time will fade everything. Feelings are starting to fade. Heart is starting to be hardened. Isn't this what i ve prayed ? Praying that everything will be healed perfectly leaving not single hint of it behind?
But why i feel strange? What's wrong with me?


 Dear heavenly father if this is what you want in my life,
Let it be. I surrender all myself to you. Let the holy spirit guide me onto the right path.
Let me not be tempted by any sins, even hints of it.
For your words said thru word, Not sinner can enter your kingdom. Therefore as child of god we should imitate Our Father. Yet you are so worthy. Thru Grace you redeemed us again. Cleaning our sins with the precious blood of christ and we are again allowed the enterance of the heaven gate.
O-Lord. Bless me.

Amen.




不想了。不痛了。也，不累了。
多好。

I need some time of my own.

Great . People good morning.

I am all dressed up n ready to celebrate Mrs Koh's birthday XD

Shiufu !!!! Happy 53rd birthday ...(OPPS...did i revealed you age ??0.o : P)

I'll juz do a quick prayer.

Dear Heavenly father,

A very big thanks for all things you provide. Father juz be here wif me in such a great saturday.

Let me enjoy every single moment wif joy, peace, n faith.

I want pray for my Shifu. She has been an awesome tuitor, mother, friend for all these yrs.

N she is such a wondeful lady. Father i prayed that you will soften her heart, let her come to christ n know you as the heavently father. I can't bare the pain of losing her in hell. Father also bless her in her life n guide

her whenever she is in-need.

Dear lord, I juz prayed today thru your work, things will go well n smooth.

In you utmost precious name i pray. Amen

I can do it de. I won't try to think of that somebody anymore.

precious

想送你12朵玫瑰
代表你是我最珍贵

Today Reached Home super early yea... I will start doing my homework today. Hopefully can complete by tonight then i will ve a gud time enjoying >.< d hols.

I tot for a very long time. Had many plans in mind. Had many visions for the future. I know what i want n the steps to take in order to accomplish the goals i desire. In life, we got to give n take. Lose n gain. It is a normal cycle. I dun ve much time already. I need to run faster ,be more decisive n strong in my stand.

I gotta keep my desires away. I got to put all emotions away . It is time to be more serious n focus le.
Maybe i will not allow myself to think of him, to miss him in someway. 730 days of faith n change.

Now i am gonna to do work le. Going to celebrate my birthday wif mum later. Enjoy my day <3






You will be hidden deep inside. Be the eva secret of my heartbeat.

Home sweet home

I decided le.

I need to kick you out of my mind.

Yes.

I need to.

Cos.

You dun even care.

Ya.

You dun.

Oh

You had never.

This is the 1st time of the week tat i am able to reach home soooooooooo early. Yes. At 2.45.

Bathed and rush to meet angeline at the cafe for study date.

Today is a bad day D : Honestly i am not very fragile and easily hurt by what people says. But i do care.

The pinch is still felt somehow. I just want  the same respect that i give to people that i cherish. Why do they take things for granted? Did i offend you guys....Sometimes Jokes can be funny but when it is overdone it is hurtful. ; ((  The pinch felt brings disappointment was more than the anger. Can you guys grow up a bit =.=''

Haiz.... Haiz.... Haiz..

Trying to be a good sister that instill discipline in my brother. Di ya... i must be firm with you, becos i dun wan you to be spoiled. Tell me god. How can i be a wonderful sister ? If patience and concern is what i need then i will work hard !!

Meet angeline at the cafe. We need some tele taby thingy ... She wear t-shirt n home shorts wif slippers n i wore jeans n singlet wif heels? N she took lunch wif out me .... Tsk... I remembered the last time she wore so till  chio n i was like wearing my sleeping outfit to NP... TSK ... Gal where has our MO Qi gone ??

Anyways you re a great study company ... N let us juz forget what is in the past ... They are no important at all... It is thru going thru tat period tat made me stronger n be bonded wif you n Pim.... True frens will go thru thick n thin de... ANYWAES... Go buy a dozen of potatoes larrr.... I Bake them for you ..Add cheese summore whooow... Hahas nice day wif you gal...

Took picture wif daniel. He is cute. N he is growing tall. I must say that i do ve a shuai n sweet didi...

Hummm... Gonna to visit mum's new branch on friday ... celebrating my birthday too..

Hopefully it is gonna be fun >.<

Nite Nite People.

happy

Juz reached home doing my hair treatment again.... VERYY LEI !!!
Eating instance noodle... poor me !!


I will work hard de. Dun rush me..


Nite Nite people...

I tried my best...

After so many days n nights. I still heart for you. Although i shouldn't.
So what. I won't say. Let all the care n concern be hiden behind these silence. Juz let it be.
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I had a long long day in school. Thanks to that HSK exam thingy .... Went JP with annie .
Enjoyed our Subway cookies. Shopped with Her at NETs for Jeans. Glad that she likes it although i really hate to shop in School Uniform =.=
Hummm... Fall sleep in train. Went buying some stuff at CK.. Toothpaste.. Shampoo... ect.. ect...
Walked home. Bathed.. Did a treatment for my hair and at the same time apply my facial mask...
Haiz... My day is gone ... it is so dull... and now i am eating my peace yogurt for dinner ....


Life seems dull. But isn't this the peace that you want ?
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Thanks daddy for helping me to get the beautiful ribbons.... I really had no time to shop them myself man....
Hummm... Need to go IKEA someday...

Sometimes desire juz vanish... N i found myself not tempted by things somehow... is it good or bad?
I dun know... I am juz tried some how... The life we are leading is so robolistic....
But that is the way isn't it ? Everything comes wif its own purpose............

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Can you at least care more for yourself ?
I heart for all the sorrow in you.
But you dun noe.
Pray for you. That is all i left to do.

I am happy although i am tired.